Saturday 16 April 2011

"TRANSFORMATION" Solitude

I never knew I would enjoy solitude. I always lived in the fast lane. Then I awakened. Moved far away, and gradually moved into another tempo so to speak. I cannot comprehend why we should have to live our lives on a roller coaster of this and that...For me solitude was given to me as a gift, ( as I learned ) and treasured as such. I am no multi - tasker in life and its daily functions; I lose all focus amidst the noise and chaos around me, and it somehow makes me nervous and upset. I love to hear my dog snoring in the distance, and hear the trees outside rustling in the wind. I have been so fortunate to have had a great teacher via my father. My father was a man who worked hard for his family as a Dr., but he lived the life of a very simple human being...he was a philosopher of all. His music made one cry, as he levitated in meditation he would write a whole symphony of musical works for say the 15th century...amazing to remember and then to write it all on paper in note form. I miss him dearly and think of him each day.
I live my life in solitude whilst others make comments about my mere existence...I'm called a loner, a hermit, anti-social and more...I do have compassion for their viewpoints for they know no better...Also a sense of humour which helps tremendously... I am friendly and approachable to others seeking solitude and being happy in that situation...few have the patience nor the feeling of the aloneness they fear so much. There is nothing to fear....
When I was in College, I had to write poetry for my Literature class...my ambiguity was evident /  different....
I am young / yet old / I am happy / yet sad / I am well / yet not / I have / yet not.....something like that....
I'm so pleased to have met some people who do understand.....my conscious is one of honesty and trust...I live thru' my soul for I know my intuition has been a strong one for me...I guess I'm lucky...